As those of you interested in Graphology may know, Doodles are drawings which many of us make unknowingly when talking or thinking. These posts are my doodles, my feelings, and reflect my state of mind....
21 April, 2010
Earth Hour brings Dramatic Changes to the Environment
01 January, 2010
Why I re-read books and other quirks of mine
I am a very eccentric person, and have quite a few quirks. Following are a few of them -
1. I re-read all novels that I have. My reading speed is kind of fast, and I tend to skip through lines at times. So, everytime I read a book again, I find something new. Also, did not have a lot of options when I was a kid as I grew up in a small city with no proper library, and the school library did not have a huge collection as well. So, I had to always repeat books. I also usually read the last chapter of a novel first.
2. I hate very clean places. I find them kind of unnatural. Does not mean that I like garbage piles n stuff, but if everything is sparkling clean then I feel as if I do not belong there.
3. I hate wearing sandals. This arises from the fact that my Dad prefers them, and was always telling me to wear them as well. And I have always been a rebel when it comes to obeying him on how to dress, behave, and the likes.
4. I do not like to sleep unless my eyes are drooling and closing with exhaustation.
5. I am a night owl, again because my father wanted me to do the reverse. College only solidified this behaviour pattern.
6. I am very openionated about certain things.
7. I dislike the fact that my face shows what is going through my mind.
8. I do not know what I want from life, but am pretty sure that this is not it. This uncertainity and undeciveness is what is killing me.
9. I believe in first impressions, though I do not judge a person by his/her clothes, manners, or any other “expected” criteria. My judgement of a person is on very vague terms, and I usually try to sense whether the person infront of me is likeable or not. The perspective is always mine, and I can never define what I look for.
10. Usually I prefer to keep to myself, specially when in the company of new people. But once I get to know a person, I am the exact opposite.
11. I used to beat my younger sister and brother a lot when a kid. Then one day, I stopped. I don’t think I can ever hit them again. I love them too much to do so.
12. I always missed the presense of an elder brother in my life, and still do. I just hope my siblings never say the same.
13. I have this habit of fast viewing a movie. I keep forwarding the movie and finish it in 10-15 minutes. Then I sit back and watch it in full.
14. I love history and historical places, specially ruins. Where other people see broken walls, I see the past granduer of the place infront of me. I once the whole day in Lucknow Residency building (which was destroyed during the 1857 war of independence) just reading the tomb stones and imagining the war there.
15. There was a time when I had an immovalbe belief in numerology. But gradually I realized that I was becoming a slave of that knowledge, and so I chose to ignore it.
16. I am an amatuer graphologist, and like to go through handwriting samples and doodles. I miss that in the HiTech world that I live in, though.
17. Off late I have come to realize that though all my life I tried to be as different from my father as I could, we are more alike deep down. There are a lot of his characteristics that I have inherited. Surprisingly enough, it makes me swell with pride. Though I have a difference of openion with him on a lot of things, he is one of the most admirable and genuine person I have ever met
Think this is enough for now.
This is Hashir, signing off,
Over and Out.
P.S. – Did you hear that youtube will be allowing download of 3 Idiots 12 weeks after its release. This will ofcourse be for a small price. Think the producers are trying to curb Piracy by this means, though am not sure if it will work. It also marks the entry of Google into the “Pay per View” Video business.
01 December, 2009
The Vande Matram Controversy and an appeal
09 November, 2009
Senseless banter
11 August, 2009
My shifting story

29 July, 2009
A new place to call home
23 July, 2009
Quarter life crisis : A Guest Post
I have days where I believe that at 22 (going on 23, augh), I am well on my way into a full-blown quarterlife crisis. Other days, I don’t care. And other days I just completely hate the phrase. What does it even mean? Who came up with it? Why is it discussed like it’s some kind of incurable disease? Who decided that by the time that most of us are in our mid-20s, we’ll be having an existential crisis?
If there’s one thing I’ve learned that I hate, it’s my lack of direction. It’s frustrating and annoying and sometimes even depressing. I thought that I had at least a general idea of what I want to do with my life, but one year after graduating college, I’m still as lost as I was the minute they handed me my diploma.
There’s a reason people say the first year after college is the hardest. The majority of us are still settling into this thing everyone calls the real world. June 21st marked the one year anniversary of my college graduation. It’s been a little hard to take that in, because it doesn’t feel like a year. If anything, I still feel as overwhelmed as I did back in August, when I first attempted to become an adult by moving to Austin, Texas.
But what good does it do me to complain yet sit around and do nothing about it? Nothing. I can whine all I want; it isn’t going to change the situation. I have to make the change happen. I guess sometimes I’m at a loss for how to actually make that happen. That’s not to say I’m not trying though.
Life is what you make of it. I can read all the books and articles in the world that go into an in-depth analysis of what a quarterlife crisis may or may not be, but at the end of the day, we are victims of our own apathy and lack of motivation. If I have a quarterlife crisis, it will be because I did nothing to prevent it. I like to think everyone wants to have a purpose, a sense of direction, a general goal in life. So maybe it’s time to pick something and stick with it. Sounds easy enough, right? Probably not, but it’s nice to think it might be.
We don’t have to discover who we are right away, but we should attempt to find out who we can be and what we’re capable of.
Life isn’t about finding yourself, it’s about creating yourself.
It's up to you to make it happen.
20 July, 2009
Random ramblings
- Know all technologies we work on (That includes Oracle SQL, PL/SQL, Forms 6i, Reports 6i, Discoverer reports, Optio reports, Java, Unix, and also server administrations of Zylab and Planet Press);
- Know the functionality of each and every module (both standard and customized); and
- Know all customizations we have in our project.